Brain freeze


I need some motivation!!

I've had way too much coffee today, and no water. I'm so lazy Id rather complain about it.

I have raffle tickets and melbourne cup tickets due next week - $300 worth. FARRRRRRK

My touch team is also giving out our siva tickets on Saturday.

Initially, I was going to buy them all myself. Irresponsible of me as I have $000000000.00

Joining social clubs and volunteering groups is no fun when you have to fundraise this way.

I haven't had mobile credit in almost week - that is how broke I am, bohoo.

But God is good! He loves me :) I am alive, employed, I have my family, my boyfriend and food to go home to.

Too blessed to be stressed roigggggght.

Hi Blog!

Well well well lol I've missed you dear blog. Its been a busy...erm couple of months (?) Work has been hectic! But Ive been very focused and very efficient.

Speaking of work, my two years are slowly winding down and ive been thinking very seriously about my life (career) plan.

I cannot believe it will be two years for me at the Chamber early next year. In saying that, two years is nothing. I feel as if im only scratching the surface of what the job has in store for me. Even more so, i still have a lot i want to contribute to the organisation.

Meanwhile, father is forcing me to apply for scholarships to study my Masters next year - FFS. I do want to do it, but not yet....I will not do my masters in political science. As much as i love my BA, i think I need to be smarter with what i want to study and to specialize in a specific field. I just need two more years to find my feet. The Chamber is the perfect place to explore possible options.

Anywho, all has been well. Ive been telling …


Big buildings


Career driven

Bullet trains
responsible drivers

Sweet bread
No fruits
Lots of veges
Rice for breakfast
Miso soup


My mom and dad are in NZ. Dad's been sick for a while due to a heart problem. As scary as it is, we know that he is in the best possible care and are reassured that he's well taken care of. In the meantime, I've been given the honor of caretaker/guardian/adult to my little brother, Simi. 13 years old - I asked him once how old he is, his reply....Im a teenager lol. (gold medal for you)
Suffice to say, he's been the best patient to the worst nurse ever lol. From washing his school uniform late at night for the next day, ironing his damp uniform before school. to making him wait after work for two hours of touch training and dropping people home. Thankfully, he never complains :) 
Last night my boyfriend came over, we'd had an argument over the phone, then decided we had to sort things out face to face (fist to fist lol)....i guess things got a teeny loud and Simi bursted through the sliding door and told us both was kinda funny and scary at the same time.…

Death - Life

Life is like a vapor. One moment we're here, the next were gone. Isn't it crazy, how much we stress ourselves out on a daily basis? We build our careers, we build big things, crave for extravagant lifestyles, act like stuck up only lose it all in the end (bye bye big ego). I suppose if you have children you want to leave knowing they're secure and are financially prepared for your 3 day funeral (Samoan style).  I suppose we all want to die knowing that we achieved something. People talk about bucket lists, experiencing life, doing it all. Self-fulfillment. But is it really? 

Isn't it crazy how deeply affected we are and how much we mourn for someone...who wasn't ours to start with? How meaningful would life be, if we were to live forever? What does it all mean. If i had forever to live I'd probably shoot myself in the head lol

If I was to die today, I'd want to leave knowing that my family is financially secure, although that's pretty un…

Recent things lol

Hi blog. 
While I wait for a friend to pick me up, I thought I would ramble on some things I've been thinking about lately.
It's been pretty busy lately with youth, church and work. My poor parents are so busy with faalavelave's. They never really ask me to contribute for it, although a chunk of my pay goes indirectly towards house stuff, and mom's stuff. On a typical day I get home around 7ish and then rest. Lately its been 10pm, with which I feel so bad for my boyfriend who has to wait for 10-20 minutes for me to reply to a text. Last night he just got sick of it and didn't text me back :( lol DRAMA!!!!!
Anyways, I went to Supernatural Fellowship earlier in the week and it was amazing. Such an incredible feeling to be in the presence of God. It really put things into perspective for me about where I'm at in life and where God is placed in my life, and where God is in my relationship with my boyfriend. I was moved by the spirit of those who were in the room a…

About a boy....

Just gonna say it. I love my boy <3 How did i get so lucky?!

And that is all...

Thank you Jesus. Prayers answered.

If I fail this, I've failed you Lord. (His words but I'll steal them lol)